I Will Not Be Moved

OK, I know I have A LOT of catching up to do, but for now, I need to get something off of my chest. There is a song by Natalie Grant called, "I will not be moved" and I have loved this song from the first time that I heard it, but I feel particularly tied to it at the moment. Most of you reading this know that we have been praying about a great possibility lately. I feel moved to post this now as opposed to when we know the outcome because I think it means more now. While I want this possibility to work out with every bone in my body, my faith will not be moved, if it doesn't. It is clear to me that God has a plan for us and while I may not know what that plan is for us yet, I am waiting with anticipation to see what it is that He unfolds for us. We have so much to be thankful for...two beautiful, healthy children and God willing we will have more when the time is right, we have a roof over our heads. The very same roof that when we first bought, we loved, but quickly saw all of the flaws in...only this is the house where CJ has grown into a precocious, intelligent, energetic, wise beyond his years little boy. The only house that Kaydee has known to which we brought her in as a baby. She has grown into a beautiful, feisty yet compassionate, loving, little girl. The house in which Chris and I have had some of our worst fights ever, yet have grown closer than ever because we had to lean on one another...we no longer had a circle of friends or family nearby (at least not at first), we no longer had babysitters jumping to be asked to watch our children. This house with all of its "flaws" is the same one where I have cried out to God in my saddest of moments knowing He would hold my hand and get us through because I will not be moved. A house is just an address, geography really and somewhere along the way, this house with all of its "flaws", became our home more so than our house in TN ever was. We built that house and decorated every inch of it exactly to our taste and in the end lost money on it because our taste is not necessarily everyone else's. That was just material stuff. In this home that still has a lot to be done, we have learned that material stuff is just that...stuff. We have learned that a house is just your address, just geography. A home is what is inside past all of the decor etc...it is where families love one another, grow closer together, in which God is the center and where they lean on Him in good times and in bad...in which their faith will not be moved. So, it is with this, that I say, while I want this possibility badly, and it seems as though it just dropped in our laps from God, if by chance, it is not His will, we will go on. We will be fine. We will move forward knowing that we are a family, knowing that when God is ready to reveal His plan for us, we will listen and we will be ready.